Although I am more of a summer person, I do love the prettiness of autumn colours; the rich red and earthy browns everywhere. I see and experience each season for its unique part of the wholeness of life, as well as its reminder that forms are transient and ever changing.
However this year I have been aware of a sadness in me as the season turns. I have found myself shedding a few tears as we say goodbye to bright summer days and hello to cold, dark winter evenings.
Thus I am reminded of my favourite quote ‘In the depths of winter I finally learned that there lay within me an invincible summer’.
I often use the quote symbolically, but here it is greatly relevant to me in its literal form too.
Even when the light and warmth of the Divine appears to have left us, it never really has. Even when we are lost in the clouds of illusion, we only need to see a tiny sparkle of light behind the greyness to know that we are always okay in the truest sense.
The process of awakening is perhaps straightforward for some, but for others it is full of peaks and troughs; sudden realisations among the pain and longings and attachments that we can’t let go of. It’s all okay, all of it, even though it may feel sometimes like we’re not getting anywhere, or have outright failed in our intentions.
More often than not lately, I find myself back in the dark night, wanting something to be different, longing for some particular path that will lift me out of this experience and into the light once more.
This will never come because…I am the path. I am the light. And so are you.
It’s easy to forget this and fall back into illusion. Yes, fall (sorry, I know I’m overusing this image, but it is relevant).
It is easy to look in the wrong place, to rely on some external path or solution, or simply to rely on what our senses tell us, not what exists within our hearts and inner wisdom.
And so, the evenings draw in, yet we can be reminded that the light that we are never goes out.